And every once in a while, when you're not expecting it, just out of the corner of your eye for a fraction of a second...and she will never leave your side. I know she walks with you every day!
Yes, I've been there and in an odd way it's very comforting, like they're telling you they're still with you and okay.And every once in a while, when you're not expecting it, just out of the corner of your eye for a fraction of a second...
Its been a rough go of it. In trying to come to terms with her passing and the horror of the last several months my husband and I started investigating the people she came from more deeply and I am disgusted to say that I was lied to on multiple accounts by unscrupulous people.
They said all the right things. Checked off all the good breeder requirements that I as a first time Doberman owner (who thought she was well researched) had required. Don't get me wrong, there were some red flags... but I was in a bad place and needed my girl.
Throughout her life I would ask my breeder to pass along my information and pictures to Miesha's brothers family so that we could meet up.. she said she did. I assumed that they just weren't interested. After everything that went down with my girl, i again asked my breeder to pass the info to them so they may be better informed in case he had health issues.. after finding that they disconnected their phone numbers for a second time I knew it was safe to assume they didn't. I decided I had to find her brother to let his family know what happened to her and give them a copy of medical records just in case.
Yesterday I scoured the internet with just his call name and the fact I knew they lived in NY and was so excited that I actually found him!! I found an obscure FB posting from a K9 Training Company upstate from last June and based on the name and age that was listed, and the fact he was the mirror image of my baby... I was 99% sure I had found him. I called the training facility and told them why I was calling and the trainer said he would reach out to his client. Within 5 minutes the his owner called me!! It was indeed him!!
I told her our story and what we had learned in our investigation. His owner never knew i had ever wanted to meet. At the very least, she will have more information if he were to ever get sick with anything. She said he was doing well though eluded to some "issues" earlier on but didn't mention what. I felt it was a small win for once!
The weather has been beautiful finally and so my boys begged me to pull out the Bouncy Castle from the garage. I pulled out the tarp that goes on the ground and unrolled it. Laying perfectly preserved across its surface was a trail of her muddy footprints from this past fall. It just broke me. I sat there bawling like an idiot.
She was the one that used to take the pain away when no one else could. She would climb into my lap and I could feel whatever was ailing me leave as if she would absorb it into herself. I don't have her now and all of the pain just festers. There is nothing in this world like the love of a Doberman, and no one can truly understand until they bring one into their life.