Please help our family heal. I lost my best friend and the pain is completely crippling. 😭😭

[Kristinnxnicole]

Sunday June 26th 2022. The worst day of my entire 35 years of life. The day my entire world would quite literally come crashing down and bring me to my knees. The day my life would never be the same again, and something no one could’ve EVER prepared me for No matter how many years or much time I had. It would have never been enough.

I lost my best friend today.

Roxy’s body collapsed into my arms just moments after I was wrapped around her neck telling her how much I loved her and that it was okay for her to let go - And at 3:59pm my baby took her last breath in my arms.

Anyone who knew me or even knew of my name, knew who Roxy was and the exorbitant amount that I loved her. I loved her more than I love myself. I still do. I wasn’t me without her.

12 years together and it suddenly feels like only 12 minutes. I would give ANYTHING to be able to hold you and hug you one last time. If loving you could’ve saved you, you would be with us forever. The only thing we have now is your empty bed and blanket still smelling strongly like you, and a house full of you and our memories together.

In my darkest loneliest hours, you were there. You were the only “consistent” person, place, or thing in my life and when I felt as if I had nothing; I have ALWAYS had you. Not sure where I am going to go from here or how I am even supposed to live a single day of my life without you. And I swear to God I don’t want to. I know undoubtedly God gave me my little girl; the daughter I have forever and always prayed to one day have and be a Mama to. Mila. because he knew there was no way in this world, I would ever be able to overcome the day I lost you if I didn’t have Mila.

Thank you for choosing me to be your Mommy Rox, and for showing me what it’s like to be loved. I have NEVER known happiness like the way I was with you. Run free sweet girl, you don’t have to hurt or suffer anymore. I hope you know how much I loved you because It will never even come remotely close to the way you loved me. Lastly, thank you for waiting for me to say goodbye and hug/kiss your face one last time. PLEASE be there to greet me at the gates again someday. My life will never be the same without you.

Please pray for our family and for our little girl Mila. She is only 3. She lost her best buddy too, and saw the entire thing happen. She just keeps crying “I want my Rox”.

I will get Roxy’s ashes back and be able to “bring her home” within the next week. It’s going to feel as if someone poured alcohol on an open wound all over again when they call but I want her back home.

As a tribute to my now Angel, in memory of her and how much she loved me and got me through, I want to get a handcrafted life size custom Doberman Pinscher Sculpture to keep in our home where she once sat, with her collar worn around it’s neck. The statue will not only hold Roxy’s ashes inside but will also provide great comfort for my family and little girl every day that we see it. A way for Roxy to forever be with us and make the heart wrenching pain of losing her a little bit less crippling.

My sister knows I won’t ask for help with anything so she made our family a go fund me to bring healing and closure to our home. because this sculpture won’t be possible or happen without you and she said she would really love to gift it to our family.

Had the timing been different I would have already bought it myself but It is expensive and I start Dental school in August that will require me to completely quit my job this month as a result. My entire savings will be depleted and wiped out from my school expenses.

This sculpture would mean everything to not only me but my 3 year old little girl who has also been a wreck over the loss of her best buddy. She had to witness the entire thing happen and it has been very hard on her.
So please consider donating to help our family heal with the best memorial gift one can have as a tribute to our sweet Roxy, the everlasting bond she shared with me, and a daily reminder that she will ALWAYS be right there beside us.

I have provided the go fund me link below that my sister started for our family ANYTHING helps.


Go fund me link: removed

 

[JanS]

I'm so very sorry for the loss of your beautiful girl and what a beautiful tribute...

Unfortunately we can't allow GoFundMe links here so I have to remove that part but I do hope you're able to find what you're looking for.

Run free beautiful Roxy.

 

[Kristinnxnicole]

Thank you it’s been very painful, and I am not okay.

 

[Panama]

So sorry to hear about your loss. They become part of us and take a part of us with then when they go. May your precious Roxy watch over you and your family and the wonderful memories with her bring you some comfort. Run like the wind Roxy.

 

[Oh Little Oji]

God bless you and your family in this time! Your bond with Roxy sounds like me with my first Dobe. I used to say to him, the few times that I spoke in my bachelor pad and I was not expecting him to follow a command: "It's always gonna' be you and me. Always." And it was. We went through many changes together and some very lean and hard times. We were each other's only constants.

So I can imagine your grief right now. Time heals everything. It really does. Hang in there!

 

[MyBuddy]

I'm so sorry for your loss! So many of us have gone through similar situations and certainly can understand exactly what you're feeling. I can tell you that a piece of your heart will never be the same. I lost my Buddy over a year ago at 13 years of age and I still cry over him. I still can't look at pictures very long without getting very emotional. Sometimes I think I'll never be over him. Hugs to you. There are no words to help you. Just know that you are here with like-minded people who all are giving you a virtual [[[HUG]]] And wishing you Peace.

 

[LifeofRubie]

I'm so sorry to hear about Roxy. Looks she lived a full and wonderful life with you and your family. Run free, sweet girl...