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I hope Rumor can give you some comfort.
So many thoughts here I can’t wrangle them into words.I really thought we had more time. All indications were there was no progression. I keep asking myself what happened?
The day started like so many. I took the dogs out then we came in and I sat down at my desk. Drake crawled under my desk to lay on my feet like he does every morning. I'm going through emails and charting out the day for the crews that would be starting work soon. I hear a long sigh and knew he was gone. I tries CPR but it was over.
Rumor nearly finished me off when she laid down by him. Now she is my saving grace because she has been so incredibly sweet. She gets up and walks around the house looking for her brother, otherwise she is glued to me. Licks my hand likes she's telling it's gonna be okay.
I'm beside myself with grief. I wanted more time. I just wasn't ready to say goodbye...